
Rolling Stone has published an excerpt from Dave Mustaine’s memoir In My Darkest Hour covering David Ellefson’s 2021 firing from Megadeth, and Mustaine’s conclusion is that the end was coming regardless — the scandal, he writes, simply hastened it. But the excerpt isn’t really about the scandal. It’s about forty years, a lawsuit, a job title Mustaine still disputes, and a friendship he says only ever worked while they were both using.
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Scott Penfold covers the Mustaine memoir excerpt on today’s Metal Breakdown Daily — what he wrote about Ellefson, the line about sobriety that nobody’s quoting, and the word he’s still arguing about forty-three years later. Download the free Loaded Radio App on Apple iOS and Google Play and get it every weekday morning.
What happened in 2021, for the record
Worth getting straight before anything else, because it gets repeated wrong constantly.
On May 10, 2021, sexually explicit videos of Ellefson appeared on Twitter. They came out of an online interaction with a nineteen-year-old Megadeth fan — a legal adult. Mustaine’s own excerpt states her age.
Allegations that Ellefson had groomed a minor circulated widely online and were false. He denied them, filed a police report in Scottsdale over the unlawful distribution of the images, and hired a criminal lawyer rather than a civil one — his reasoning at the time being that the distribution was the actual offence. The matter has since been resolved.
He was notified on May 14 that Megadeth were parting ways with him. Three days later he was fired.
Steve DiGiorgio of Testament re-recorded his bass parts for The Sick, The Dying… And The Dead!, and James LoMenzo was announced as a permanent member in May 2022.
That’s the factual spine. Now the part that’s actually new.
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“The end was likely near”
Mustaine’s account of finding out is that he learned the same way everyone else did — online.
His words on what followed: it was impossible to separate fact from fiction, truth from fantasy, as the internet exploded in typically histrionic fashion. But one thing was clear, and that was who was in the videos.
Then the question he puts to himself: would David have remained a member of Megadeth if that video had not surfaced?
His answer: who’s to say. He’s seen enough people come and go, and experienced enough upheaval with Ellefson, to know the end was likely near. But certainly the scandal hastened the process.
That’s the headline everyone will run. Here’s the bit they won’t.
The line nobody is going to quote
Mustaine goes back over the whole relationship, and it’s considerably more candid than anything he’s said in an interview.
They were friends and creative partners. They fought like enemies. They played a lot of great music together.
And then: we were codependent junkies, feeding and fueling each other’s addictions.
That’s the whole friendship, in his telling. Not a partnership that happened to involve drugs — a partnership that was the drugs.
He explains what happened next, and this is the part that stopped me.
When they both got sober, the distance increased. Partly, he writes, because they’d lost the awful, unhealthy thing that had bonded them. Partly because they approached sobriety and recovery from different places, with different points of view.
Sit with the shape of that for a second.
Two teenagers start a band in 1983. They build one of the biggest catalogues in metal. Forty years of records, tours, a lawsuit, a firing, a reunion. Both of them eventually get clean — which is the outcome you want for anyone, and it’s the reason they’re both alive to argue about this.
And it finished them.
I’ve interviewed Mustaine. He does not hand things over. He is not a man who volunteers a weakness or offers you an angle you didn’t have. Writing that down and putting it in a book is a harder thing than firing anybody, and it’s the most honest sentence he’s ever put in print.
He also adds a line that reads as a shot without ever naming a target: there are plenty of people in the fellowships committed to genuine transformation, and there are others who mostly just talk the talk. He tries to stay away from those folks. Sometimes unsuccessfully.
Given that Ellefson spent a year at seminary and has been publicly a man of faith, that one doesn’t need decoding.
Forty-three years and one word
The other thing the memoir does is settle a job title.
“As original members of Megadeth” — and then Mustaine interrupts himself in brackets — “David likes to say he was a ‘founding’ member. I don’t view it that way. I started Megadeth and invited him to join.”
Forty-three years on, in a book about his own life, he has stopped to correct the word.
Underneath it is the thing he states plainly a paragraph later: it was my band and mostly my songs, and that was always a source of friction.
And this is where it gets interesting, because he isn’t alone this week.
Five days ago King Diamond volunteered — unprompted, in an interview about parting with a guitarist of forty years — that he’d written roughly seventy percent of the music across every album himself. Nobody asked him whether he could write alone. He answered it anyway.
Two bandleaders, same week, both establishing authorship at the precise moment their longest partnership is being discussed. That isn’t a coincidence, it’s an occupational reflex — and if you want to know what it actually costs to be the one whose name is on the band, that’s the tell.
Mustaine has more claim to authorship than most, incidentally. His riffs are on the first two Metallica albums as well.
The 2010 return, and what it actually was
The other detail worth pulling out.
Ellefson filed an $18.5 million lawsuit against Mustaine in 2004, alleging he’d been shortchanged on profits and that Mustaine had backed out of a deal to hand Megadeth Inc. over to him when the band broke up in 2002. It was dismissed. Mustaine’s line in the memoir: the outcome was not nearly what he hoped for, and let’s leave it at that.
They patched things up in 2010 and Ellefson returned — as a salaried player, not a creative partner. Mustaine says that plainly, and adds that things were never great between them. Too much history, too much anger, too much behaviour he found distasteful.
Ellefson has described the same arrangement from the other side. Speaking to Trunk Nation in 2021, he said it had been clear since 2004 that the band would be reframed around Mustaine unilaterally, a hundred percent the boss, and that the nineties partnership era with him, Nick Menza and Marty Friedman was done.
His summary of the 2021 exit was blunt and, to his credit, unbitter: this time there was no partnership to dissolve. It was, hey, we don’t want you here, there’s the door, don’t come to work on Monday. Okay. Fine.
Both men are describing the same eleven years. One calls it a salaried arrangement. The other calls it the optics of a partnership. Neither is wrong.
Ellefson’s side of the firing
He’s spoken about it more than once and he’s been consistent.
To Metal Hammer in January 2024: there are two sides to it. When you bare it all, you’ve got nothing to hide. What he feels worst about is the embarrassment it caused people like his family, who didn’t deserve it — and out of respect for them he keeps the family dynamic off the table.
On Mustaine’s response, he says Dave, his manager and his lawyer called him, and that one of them suggested stepping back and letting Ellefson deal with it, which would leave the door open for a return. Dave didn’t want that. He made his decision and it is what it is.
To Trunk Nation, Ellefson said he ran toward the bullets. The Megadeth camp told him not to say anything; his lawyers told him he should. He did, and he believes that’s what led to his dismissal.
His line on going to the police: the bad guy doesn’t go to the police department.
Mustaine in 2022, asked if it was hard
Worth including, because he was asked directly at the time and the answer was more human than the internet gave him credit for.
Speaking to Metal Hammer, he said he’d made mistakes himself and knew what it felt like to have people gunning for you. He pointed out what Megadeth actually is — four members, their families, management, agencies, technicians, on and on — and that decisions he’d made in the past had damaged the security of all of it.
Then, audibly struggling: God, it’s so hard to tap-dance around this.
He said he didn’t want to say anything about someone unable to defend themselves. That all he wanted was a clean break that didn’t hurt anyone, including Ellefson, and that he hoped the man was doing okay. He drew the parallel himself — it was hard for me when I lost my job — which is Mustaine referring to being thrown out of Metallica in 1983.
And then the line that sums the whole thing up:
I’ve forgiven him before when he sued me and I’ll forgive him a thousand times. I just won’t play music with him anymore.
Four years on, a memoir has arrived that says the same thing at greater length.
Where Megadeth are now
The band ended their run with a self-titled seventeenth album in January 2026 that became the only Megadeth record ever to reach number one on the Billboard 200 — after forty-three years and sixteen previous attempts.
James LoMenzo is on bass. The farewell tour is underway and Mustaine has said it’ll run for years rather than months.
Our full ranking of every Megadeth album is here, and every guitarist who’s passed through the band is a longer list than most people realise.
Ellefson was in Megadeth from 1983 to 2002, and again from 2010 to 2021. Nearly thirty years across two stints, and on most of the records that built thrash metal.
TL;DR
- Rolling Stone has published an excerpt from Dave Mustaine’s memoir In My Darkest Hour addressing David Ellefson’s 2021 dismissal from Megadeth.
- Mustaine’s verdict: the end was likely near regardless, and the scandal hastened it.
- The line nobody’s quoting: he describes them as codependent junkies who fed each other’s addictions, and writes that when they both got sober the distance between them increased, because they’d lost the unhealthy thing that bonded them.
- He corrects Ellefson’s job title in print: “David likes to say he was a ‘founding’ member. I don’t view it that way. I started Megadeth and invited him to join.”
- For the record: the 2021 videos came from an interaction with a nineteen-year-old — a legal adult. The grooming allegations were false, Ellefson reported the unauthorised distribution to police himself, and the matter is resolved.
- Ellefson’s 2010 return was as a salaried player, not a creative partner — a characterisation both men agree on.
- Mustaine in 2022: “I’ve forgiven him before when he sued me and I’ll forgive him a thousand times. I just won’t play music with him anymore.”
FAQ
What does Dave Mustaine say about David Ellefson in his memoir?
In an excerpt from In My Darkest Hour published by Rolling Stone, Mustaine writes that Ellefson’s time in Megadeth “was likely near” its end even before the May 2021 leaked-video scandal, which he says hastened the process. He also describes their friendship as having been built on shared addiction, writing that when both men got sober the distance between them increased because they had lost the unhealthy thing that bonded them.
Why was David Ellefson fired from Megadeth?
Explicit videos of Ellefson appeared online in May 2021, arising from an online interaction with a nineteen-year-old fan. He was notified on May 14, 2021 that Megadeth were parting ways with him and was dismissed three days later. Mustaine has said the decision was made because the situation made working together impossible given an already strained relationship.
Were the grooming allegations against David Ellefson true?
No. Ellefson denied them, the person involved was nineteen and therefore a legal adult, and he filed a police report in Scottsdale, Arizona over the unlawful distribution of the images — hiring a criminal lawyer rather than a civil one on the basis that the distribution was the offence. The matter has since been resolved.
Does Dave Mustaine consider David Ellefson a founding member of Megadeth?
No. In In My Darkest Hour he writes that Ellefson “likes to say he was a ‘founding’ member. I don’t view it that way. I started Megadeth and invited him to join.” He also states that it was his band and mostly his songs, and that this was always a source of friction.
Who replaced David Ellefson in Megadeth?
Steve DiGiorgio of Testament re-recorded Ellefson’s bass parts for The Sick, The Dying… And The Dead!, and James LoMenzo was announced as a permanent member in May 2022, having previously played bass for the band in the mid-2000s.
Forty years, one lawsuit, one firing — and a man writing in his own memoir that getting clean is what finally ended it. Where do you land on it? Tell me below. And keep it locked on the Loaded Radio stream — follow Loaded Radio for daily rock and metal news.
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